"Linda smiled grimly at my attempted humor."Perhaps the 250th time will be different from the 249th," she said. "I've told her and told her. You've to...d her at least once and probably more than that. I think, realistically, she knows it. However..." Yes," I replied. "There is always the 'however.' I am unsure why she chooses to perpetuate the myth but I'm certain she has her reasons. Perhaps we could convince it is OK to believe that it is safer not to advertise it."Linda cocked her head to the. "In fact she might be very very angry at the one that opens the pit." I say.She just stares at me."You know the reason I am disappointed in myself?" I ask.She doesn't say anything."I failed you, I failed the daughters, I was supposed to be a guide for you, a moral compass if you would." I say.She looks toward the rising sun, I can see pain on her face."I Let myself be pulled into the politics, the minutia of day to day life, I thought you didn't need me anymore, hell I started pulling away. "Damn, it's the school ma'am; Tuesday is usually The Angel at this time. Oh well she might be in later I suppose.I don't wait for the librarian and head off on my own, I've been coming here at least three times a week for the last 5 years and can find my own way to the warm oak desk that has almost become my own. She tags along just to be sure, I suppose it's part of the job, but I'm too tired to join in the whispered small talk. I place my hand on the back of the leather upholstered chair, my. M uper gayi dekha to shiv dayal g mom k pero ki malish kare the. M bina kuch bole niche aa gayi pata nahi kab tak ye malish chalegi. M thodi der leti to nind nahi aayi subha late uthhi thi is liye m aise hi kuch time latei phir socha shiv dayal g niche kyu nahi aaye mujhe bhi malish karani thi. To m uthhi or uper gayi , uper dekha to m vishwas nahi hua kyunki mom shiv dayal g k samne nangi ulti leti hui or shiv dayal g unki kamar ko malish kare mujhe bada ganda sa feel hua but m ruk gayi andar.