With my heart in my throat an d a voice in my head telling me that this was a bad idea, I walked to the door and placed my hand on the knob. The door ...nob was warm to the touch and pulsing! Snatching my hand back, I stumbled backwards away from the room. Thinking that some mysteries should best be left unsolved, I scrambled down the stairs to the kitchen. My blood was pumping fiercely, as I leaned against the sink. I was convinced that this was going to give me a heart attack with all her. Heidi hated the way he kept saying her name."I want to explain. I'm not trying to condone what I did, but I just want you to know that I'm different now. God, I was so young and arrogant. I thought that every girl would want to get with me. I know that my apology isn't worth much now, but for what it is worth, I've felt guilty for it every day since."Heidi found that hard to believe. "Why now? Why did it take you four years to come say something to me?" She tried hard to keep her voice calm,. Gondamai eduthu en sunniyil aninthu vitu sunniyai kutha vaithu amarthu umba aarambithaal, haaaaaaaa sunniyil sudaga sugam eer pada aarambithathu. Athai anintha udan sunni vazha vazhavendu irunthathu, nandraaga nurse sunniyai sappi vittu umba aarambithaal.Avaluku nangu therinthu irunthathu, eppadi sunniyai sappi sugam kodukanum endru.Sunniyai azhagaga vizhungi umba aarambithaal, appadi umbum pozhuthu en kotaiyil kai vaithu thadavi konde sexyaaga sunniyai sappi umbi vida aarambithaal. Azhagaga. .. But everyone thought I was the cutest little doll. They treated me like a toy. They used to dress me up every time we went out – right up until I was like, 8 or 9 - I was a pixie, an elf, a little teddy bear ... I loved being the teddy bear – I got so many hugs when I was the teddy bear ... I think I started associating that little furry costume with love and being wanted and all that ... And that lead to me being a ‘furry’ when I grew up ... I like to wear costumes ... Dress up as an animal.