‘Tell me my son what are you running from’ as the colors and smells intensified. Still kneeling, he said ‘you just don’t know what it is like ...o see her in all my thoughts and dreams, going through life and constantly waking up without her by my side, knowing that despite what she says that she doesn’t really want to be there and/or with me. She keeps running from me and not toward me. I’ve given up so much to be with her. She recently told me that she was afraid to make a mistake. I am NO. When any of our friends or acquaintances asks, I tend to be a bit vague with them. But what I really run is a detective agency! I've twenty freelance detectives who work for me. They all specialise in different fields. Some work on company fraud and do background checks on prospective employees. Some work with security of computers and some work on what we like to term domestics."Joanne had suddenly turned very pale and I think I saw her stomach give a couple of lurches."Are you feeling. When Eric said those words, "ExtremeHolly, OFF", I suddenly became TOTALLY aware of what I was doing andhow I was acting. I wasn't really embarrassed by it, but I WASsurprised and a little scared by it."Eric!" I said in a slightly shaky tome of voice. "Holy shit! WHAT wasI just DOING? That's scary, man. Why was I acting like that? Can Icontrol it or will I act like that all the time around men? I don'tknow if I can HANDLE this if I can't control how I act."He replied, saying, "Holly, just. I saw Ana coming out of the bar with a huge black guy and she seemed to hug him goodnight. But the man pulled her back to him and kissed her lips. My sexy wife returned the kiss in a very passionate way. They talked for a minute and both got into separate cars. But Ana did not drive back home. She turned around the corner and met the guy’s car at the darkest section of the parking lot. They got out of the cars.I walked over close enough to see and hear them. They embraced and started kissing.