I couldn’t see her face. ‘I feel such a twat.’ She slipped her arm through mine and we walked like that towards the house. ‘We all knew how yo... feel about her. We always knew.’ I nodded, was that all I was capable of doing? Tippi stopped, restraining me with her gentle grip on my arm and turned me to face her. ‘You cant help how you feel. Nothing hurts like unrequited love but yours wasn’t unrequited, just unrealistic. She’s straight and always will be.’ She wiped a tear from my face with her. .good-bye…. * Wow, hes giving her a serious pounding, whispered Levi to Bruce, as both boys tried to look into the carriage through the blind covered windows. Even over the trains engines and excited chatter of students from other carriages, Levi and Bruce could hear Oksana excited pants. Levi could just make out what looked to be James, long, lean back and bum from across the carriage, with what appeared to be Oksanas legs spread wide either side of his hips. I can just about see some of her. Now I have you."Putting her hand on my leg, she said, "Yes, you do Richard."It was quiet for a stretch of the drive. I looked down at her hand. She had no adornment on either hand ... such a waste of beautiful fingers. I feel certain of what I had planned for her after our surprise visit to Susan's place.Even though she told me to just come in whenever I came over, I knocked on the door anyway."Just a minute," we heard.The door opened and she broke into a beautiful smile, "Was I expecting you?". I was a sex predator and wanted to experience more men before I was no longer desirable, difficult to admit until the honest realization, I was my father's daughter. The dilemma was not being faithful; was keeping my addiction hidden. I wanted the sanctuary of marriage and affairs.Reviewing my past, I realized Edward almost cost me my marriage. I stupidly thought my husband's swinging agenda would provide a rationale for his acceptance. Once his jealousy was exposed it was too late to stop.