But you are always ready to go again! But, after seeing and hearing Kelly last night, I bet you both have a tough time keeping up with each other.The..., we both sat down and I asked if she ate yet. Becky said that her and Kelly ate some fruit and had toast before I came down. She asked if I was hungry and if I was, she would fix me something to eat. I told Becky that I could get it and would fix her something if she wants. Becky said “Please? Can I cook for you? I seen you had bacon and. But then, she said," would you like to try it on miss?" And I replied, with a flip of my hair, "yes, of course." After all, you don't buy clothing without trying it on. What girl in her right mind would buy a foundation garment without trying it on? Now, where did the nerve for that come from? And why had she called me "miss?" And why was I trying on such a garment? I'm a guy, aren't I? Well, I WAS! Must be the hair and the earrings, that's it. Or maybe it was my voice. I sounded. But for the first time since Ben died I was feeling something else along with the anger or rage or sadness or depression that had been constant. Joe had sparked the memory of how it had been between us – all of us – and there was a flicker of life fighting its way out. My first call was to Mia. She hugged me and handed me tissues, letting me ramble nonsensically about Ben and Joe and how I didn’t know what I was supposed to do or even what I wanted. She held my hand while I made an appointment. I never even got in one word. I headed back in the Manse. I know that sounds a bit high brow but I just can’t bring my self to just call it a house. As I stepped on the first step I was tackled and went to the ground I realized I had been shot at.Amber had tackled me she had spotted a flash that she identified as a reflection on a rifle scope and she had reacted. I looked at the left column the bullet hole was plain to see Head high. I glanced out in the field only to see four horses with women.