Crocker looked at me. She knew what Barry was going through andsaid, "Hey it can't hurt to try. For Barry, it is all in his mind andnot real. If he th...nks he is delivering a baby, then let him act itout."For some reason when Barry followed Nicole's coaching, it made iteasier for me. Both William and Belladonna Remington popped out whenboth Barry and I worked together. Belle later told me that it was amental backwash from the connection Bary and I had in our minds. Dr.Busch's treatment was too. But when it came down to it, we both were into eachother. You could tell she liked me, she started asking me more personal questions. What I did for a living, stuff like that. She was playing with her hair a bit. She reached over the table and touched my hand and said she had to go to the bathroom and would be right back...When she got back her friends arrived not long after. she introduced me to them and said I could hang out with them. They wanted to go outside for a smoke. So we went outside. At that time I was a newcomer to that locality. I used to observe Shama. Most of the time she used to talk over the phone on the veranda of her house. So I could see her almost every evening.After a few weeks, we started to stare at each other and started to smile at each other. But didn’t got any chance of speaking with her. And I didn’t get any courage to speak with her. Because I was not knowing who else is there in her home apart from her. And the child (3-4 years) who used to play with. Boss, would you blame her for having her disease? Could you do that?"I sat frozen for a long time. I'd had some thoughts along this line, but Carl threw a vivid image at me--one I could not ignore or set aside. What he was requiring me to do was examine my core beliefs and wonder whether I was a real man or a Hollywood image of one.Did I want my pride (my ego?) and my instinctive revulsion at the thought of Laura having shared her body with another man to be the defining characters of my.