It ALL makes you so tired, doesn’t it. You NEED to rest. I can see it in YOUR eyes. You feel so tired … and … helpless … and my eyes almost CA...L to you don’t they. A siren call you can’t resist. You WANT to keep looking deep into my eyes …. you NEED to keep looking deep into my eyes . But you are so sleepy and your eyes are so heavy. They want to close. But I won’t LET you close them. I command you to keep looking into my eyes. Its all so confusing isn’t it my pet? Open … close … what can a. Alright so technically I knew that I wasnt supposed to drink something that I hadnt been ordering myself or kept a watchful eye over at all times. I should probably just have said no thanks and rushed back to the hotel. Perhaps that would have allowed me to see another day. But I didnt. I took a sip and I loved it. I had no idea what the drink was called but it didnt take me long to wash it down. I tried once more to find the guy who had bought the drink for me but had to give up when I started. I hated myself for it, but even minor screw-ups in school could wreck my chances of getting into medical school. I’d made that decision in fourth grade and everything I’d done to this point had been directed to that.I felt guilty about Jocelyn for several reasons, but short of trying to do something against my own nature, I didn’t know what I could do. I considered the sequence of events, and wondered if I’d caused at least part of the problem by developing a relationship with Nancy. But. I had already taken my first tentative steps into this new world, already gaining a couple of promotions in my first couple of years of labour. Between the ages of sixteen and eighteen, my body had undergone a rapid transformation; at sixteen, I was a tall and gangly, awkward youth! At eighteen years, I could have been mistaken for a 200 or 400 metre runner! The past couple of years had made me the man I was. And work was dangerous; there were often instances when an ambulance was called, and.