’ He helped Carol out and I helped Jenny. I held her hand until we were in the house and then I fell into my recliner and pulled Jenny into my lap. ...he next time I was really present to being with people it was almost dark. Jenny was crying in my lap. Mike and Carol were on the couch curled up together. I said, ‘Lee’s right. Sometimes when I’m loving either of you I feel the hurt and the anger for Pat. It keeps me from really, completely being with either of you.’ Mike said, ‘It gets between us. Mai nai us say kaha k jus gf he sathlait sakti hai frendz nahe lait saktay kaya aur kya farak parna hai ghr mai to waisay bkoi nahe hai wo muskarana suro ho gaye aur kehti hai k acha tum laito aur aram karois baray mai bad mai discus karay gay . parna b hai abi .mai nai kaha jaisay tumarimarzi aise mokay bar bar kahan atay hai life mai . mai ja k us k bed mai lait gaya aurmai nai apni shirt utar de us nai kaha k ye kaya kar rahe ho mai nai kaha k mai aisay he sota ho warna mujy neend nahe ati .. Sometimes I'd dress all out in one of aunty's formal gowns, do my hairand make-up, and eventually make myself cum in my pretty panties as Ipretended to wait for my masculine boyfriend to take me to the dance.But how can I explain all the sensations that brought me to where I nowwas?Once I get dressed I have to be sure I act as a lady completely, onlyfeminine movements , actions and (even)motivations were allowed. I'macutely conscious of my false lashes every time I blink or flutter and Iam. I dug in the lowest spot and looked through the sand. I found several nuggets the size of my thumb. Excited I looked further upstream. I found a quartz outcropping and saw a vein of gold laced quartz at the edge. I tried to pick out as much of the gold as possible but couldn't get to most of the exposed gold without a pickax. Defeated in my attempt to get the gold out, I still managed to fill both front pockets with nuggets and gold-laden quartz that had fallen off the outcropping. I marked the.