When Penny Barker did something, she did it thoroughly; infidelity included.So, if this was the place the madness had started; was it to be where it a...l ended too?Sitting there waiting for the infant cry which would inevitably come, demanding my immediate presence and the provision of sustenance from my tiny, inflamed breasts, the fun and excitement of being a Hot Wife had gone.Deep down I knew that Pete would never return to the woman who had treated him so badly and brought him so much. The glass case on the counter beside her displayed lottery tickets. Rows of cigarettes lined the shelves behind her, just above a sign that said, "Ask about Playboy and Penthouse". The sign was low so that a child standing at the counter might not see it. Along the counter were prominent displays of prepaid phones and mpeg players, and curious electric paraphernalia in hard clear plastic whose purposes he couldn't fathom.He stood holding the glass door. It was as if he was seeing her in the. Since my Dad’s name was already on my birth certificate, my grandparents couldn’t keep him from me permanently, but they tried like hell. For the next four years I would visit my dad a couple of times a year. As time went on, he noticed that I was becoming malnourished and when he looked into it, he found that my dumbass mother was away partying at college and my grandparents were watching me. However, they rarely fed me enough food, rarely kept me changed, and rarely bought me clothes that. Jeff was humming along and bouncing up and down in his seat. My friends, I gave in and used the closest word, would have found it worthy of ridicule. I found it endearing. I found it arousing. I took him home and had my way with him. For the first time in my life, I had a man stay the night. I awoke to find him sleeping peacefully. I was assaulted by the intensity of the feelings I had for him. This had to be infatuation. It was far too intense to be love. I snuggled up against him and waited.