I was drawn to Jamie because she became kind of an outsider among thegirls about the same time I became one among the boys, and of coursemisery does l...ve company.Despite what I just said about the kids not going too far, both of uscame to the conclusion that on the whole, we should leave the group aloneas much as possible. It wasn't "live and let live", more like "hide anddont get hurt."So we ended up spending a lot of time together.And both of us soon realized that part of the reason we were. Well, to be honest, the wine has affected me and, well, I need, well, I need some attention. I tried to act shy. I pulled the top off and let it fall and walked the two steps to him and put my arms around his neck and kissed him deep. He pulled away after he realized Ihe was responding. Ah, shit, Sue, we cant do this. he said. I pulled off the bottom and tossed it at him, You dont understand, we are going to do this. I smiled and again was against him my body against him and feeling his growing. I was seething with anger when Russ told me he had banged my sister with a big hard dick and that I would never know what it was like to fuck a woman. Julie just giggled.That evening I looked at my journal and saw that two days from now would be a good time to fuck Julie. I debated whether I could fuck my sister, but the anger I felt toward her and Russ overcame any guilt I might have had over incestual feelings.Two days later I went to the creek again to fish before dawn. I saw Russ leave. I then feel another twitch, I don’t even know Laura that well. Also why is that remote controlling my dick, she then makes my dick get so hard.Then I was saved by the bell, thank god I thought to myself. This isn’t over between us she said with a sly grin on her face, I then feel another twitch in my dick.How is that remote controlling me, thank god our next period together is lunch I say.We then go to lunch, and we sit together, I then ask her why that remote can control me. Aslo I asked why’s.