I swore my allegiance to any god that would find a way for me to get the fuck out of WayTooFuckingCold Vermont the next day. As an afterthought I incl...ded my sister in the deal, she was in the second bed and I’m sure she was as frigid as I was just then.The next morning my little sister Diane and I sat in dining room where the motel served hot chocolate and pancakes courtesy of an electric stove. I watched the morning news to catch the weather forecast and the news was as glum as the fucking. When McKayla died, they sent more flowers and food than we ever could have needed, and refused to take a penny from me. When I tried to slip some money to one of their employees afterwards, I found out they gave it to Hospice in McKayla's name.So when I asked if Maureen and I could reserve one of their back dining rooms for lunch, they closed the entire restaurant for a "private party". As much for myself as my daughter, I wanted Maureen's first meeting with her father to be somewhere that was. I had decided not to pursue any one of them since I was not being totally honest about who I was or had been. I believed starting a relationship with secrets isn’t good in the short term or in the long run. Diane invited first. She wanted Friday evening. Grace, the high school English teacher, invited me for Tuesday evening. Margaret, the principal of the elementary school, asked me to dinner for Saturday. Ann asked for Sunday evening. Ann ran the office for the local utility, natural gas,. I slap your ass hard and use my muscular hips to slam into you with all my strength. “I love, I love it, oh god I swear I love it!” You scream. I can see the frozen look of ecstasy on your face and it drives me wild. “I’m gonna destroy your pussy fagboi. I don’t think I’m hitting that shit harder enough punk, yeah…I can see I’m gonna have to fuck you like a black goddamn savage…huh, yeah I bet that’s what you really what…isn’t it…bitch?”I could see you were helpless as I continuously power.