I managed to get a couple of sofa beds cheap so I have put them in there too. Come on I’ll show you” We picked up our drinks and made our way over...to Dave’s workshop. He had indeed done a grand job with it; just as I expected he would. The girls sat down on one of the sofas and we set up the balls for a game of pool. It was shortly after that I was lining up a shot and I started to feel dizzy and there seemed to be twice as many balls on the table. “You OK Andy” Dave asked. “Dunno” I said. I couldn’t deal with the idea that something might be really wrong any more than he could. Finally he saw a doctor and we found out that just about all through the past year the cancer we didn’t know about had been taking over his body. After while, he “rented” one of the Shelby’s hired men two days a week. And finally he asked his sister to come and live with us and look after things. In his zeal to make sure I grew up “pure” (and maybe to justify himself, too) he insisted that Aunt Rinnie. In all ways and I love you. I want you, but I won’t rush you into anything.’ He said calmly. He was so confident and sure of himself. How did he do that? I’m sure he could see the conflict and insecurity in my face and I sighed resignedly. ‘I don’t … I can’t… Ugh! I can’t even string a thought together.’ I shook my head. ‘I want this, Marty. I really do. I love you. I do. But..’ I shrugged and looked down again. ‘My heart’s desire is staring me right in the face and I can’t even let myself have. Something really dramatic happened that changed my life completely. Then you will know it all, and I'll answer anything you ask."After he knows it all ... everything ... would I still be the woman he loved? Or just some perverted tramp?I worked up my courage and finished telling him the rest of my story.When Daddy and I returned home that evening, Mom was there waiting to greet us. Of course she wanted to know what all happened with the pitching coach. What could I tell her? She had never asked.