I know you want to spend time with me, and I promise to schedule time for you tomorrow afternoon. I love you and want to be with you, but I adore Ed a...d need to be with him. He gives me the energy I need to keep going. I know you're torn, as you understand my needs but also want to make the most of whatever time you can share with me. We're both torn, but realize you are very special to me and always in my heart. Ed and I are planning to go to the beach, today. Don't wait up for me, and don't. We have not had sex for almost five years. You have been evading, avoiding, putting me off for five fucking years and I am fucking fed up. I want answers! You are a healthy, fit pretty woman of only fifty-five years and there is no reason why we should not have sex together. I don?t want to rape you -- but -- I want to know why you?ve emasculated me -- why we have no sex any more and haven?t had it for five goddamn years. I am just as fit and trim as I was five - ten - fifteen years ago. In the end I thought "sod it." and got up to run like hell into the water; mum saw me coming and urged me as she laughed. Thankfully I made it without any obvious mishaps like my penis leaping out of my shorts and it was with some relief that I dived in and swam lazily for a minute or two.The water was lovely and warm and we splashed each other for a while and generally fooled around. Mum was laughing like I hadn't seen her laugh for a long time and when we finally left the water, I put an arm. I smiled back and asked if we were going to the sinkhole and when had it reopened. He looked at me in shock and laughed before answering my question."Man if you remember that place then you must be old school. We been training there for the last five years. How's come you know about it Mr. Hanson?" I was an instructor there for the Army when we were training Vietnamese Army Officers on the advanced tactical radar that was used in the Huey gun ships. I spent a lot of time getting ate by.