But, at first I even started thinking of it as a good idea in its sick little way. I mean, there got to be more times alone, for one. Like now; ther...'s lots of time alone now.But then it started to become what I imagine it was all along: Personal. Just when it started feeling that way, he did me a strike two. He started spending time with that bitch Linda from the tennis club. The bitch with brains was one thing, but Linda was a bitch with a really sexual backhand. How was I to compete. ‘Whoaa! It’s so abundance! So that is the sea of consciousness of a second realm soul!’ Before he even got to his Inner Panorama or soul, Zax was captivated by the transformation of his sea of consciousness.The space that had been like an empty shell, occupied by the tiny soul and a patch of Inner Panorama, was now a sea and a sky of grayish colors.Zax’s manifested form stood at the edge of his Inner Panorama. His bare legs could feel the sensation of water splashing on them as the sea water. The verdict rendered, I'd picked up the symbolic collar and put it on myself, and it just sort of mushroomed from there to a full set of cuffs and chains, total degradation and humiliation, ending with a backyard erotic flogging that had sent me over the moon. At that point my cares had melted away right along with Mom's.All with my total cooperation, which was utterly stupid of me I now knew.Oh was it fun!But now, I guess the expression is, "I had to pay the piper."I could just see it. The. Just as this happened I heard a door above us open and I looked up at the balcony overlooking our living room area and saw my buddies stick their heads out. They both just laughed. I asked them if they both wanted to join us and they both just smiled and said no thanks man we’re going to sleep. After eating and fingering her holes for a few minutes I then got behind Rachel and started fucking her from behind while she continued to eat out the escort. As I was fucking her I was in heaven,.