"While these phrases were not directly spoken to me, I heard the message loud and clear. Every time as much as a kiss appeared on the screen, the tele...ision was promptly turned off. Harsh criticisms were voiced of any affections witnessed in public. I never saw my father kiss my mother. Bible verses choked out my cravings at nighttime when my fingers wanted to roam freely underneath the privacy of my covers. The teachings, God sees you, even in darkness, stopped me. I am sexually repressed.. We sat in bed one morning and she explained herself saying that, “so far it had been fairly simply her fantasies and that she had enjoyed ever second,” and she thanked me for letting her enjoy these games, then she looked a little more serious and said; “ look Peter, the next phase, well its things I feel I must do, don’t ask me why, but if any of these next games finish me, then so be it, I have nothing to lose, and it`s what I want even if it denies you my body at times and what is done to me. They completely outnumber us in Magicien’s as the haut-Magicien cabale on Gorias sided with the government there. What few we have are barely enough to defend us, but again we hold,” Ferrimoot explained.“Aye, but holding isn’t winning,” growled one of the Comitet I recognised as Kordanta, Ferrimoot’s old adjutant.“I know that, old friend,” Ferrimoot acknowledged. “That’s why I took up a promise from the Mages of Earth to talk if we could successfully revolt.”“Which is why we’re here despite a. Well, his loss. Yes, I definitely want, and need, to continue to, to feel like this." She paused a minute, then looking up at me from under her lashes; she blushed a bit and said," So Jeff, what do you want me to do?"Wow! This was a mind blower! My mom was asking me both for approval and direction. While I tried to process this, I stammered a bit, made a conscious effort to steady my voice and answered her."I don't know Mom; let's just start out one step at a time. Let's start with kissing.