..I made up that name so you would think I was dreaming of somone else" My eyes wide in shock. Holy shit! He WAS thinking about me the whole time! How...the hell do I react to that?! I wasn't sure how I felt anymore. Part of me knew how wrong this was. How sick it was to have done what we had. But that small part of me was so turned on! "Why?" I breathed. "Do you realize how wrong this is Rob?" "Look Tory. Im sorry, im so sorry and yes God yes I know how bad this is, but but I..I just couldnt. My vision become tunnel vision, having me set a goal. That goal is to get to my car, my beat-up muscle car, and drive far, far away. I start it and drive straight out of town. Anywhere but here will do. I drive what seemed to be an endless path of American asphalt passing road signs and entering through a state line. My energy level start to deteriorate as the day becomes afternoon, and the afternoon becomes night. I don't feel a sense of being lost but I do see that I'm driving through some. "And I'd encourage you to do the same for me. Maybe you don't want the same things from me that you do from your girlfriends. Or maybe you do. But I'll only know what you want if you tell me. So don't be afraid to speak up."I sipped my coffee while I let that sink in. Knowing Mom, she might well be saying all this so that when she did try to tell me that I had no idea what I was doing later, it wouldn't sound like it. But I thought maybe she really meant what she was saying. "That makes perfect. Mr.mishra was waiting for me and we proceeded to his studio-room for the photo-shoot. He told me that i will have to remove my shirt and pose. I was quite ok with that and did so in no time. He asked me to pose for a few snaps and then asked me whether i am ok with concept of creative-nudity. I didn’t quite understand, so he showed me some pics of naked guys where their private parts will be hidden behind the darkness or by some objects on the angle of the shot. Also their faces would be,.