I’d do things like leave town for days without telling him or bringing my phone, or stay in bed with a book all day and forget to answer his texts.I... just wasn’t second nature for me to be tied down and predictable.When I met Paul online I expected the same cycle to occur. We met up at the corner dive bar where I prefer to meet all my first dates. He complimented my lip color — it’s always a great sign when a man isn’t intimidated by lipstick. He asked me about my writing and he told me about. After recording the last set of data, we walked back to the truck, Ginger put the notebook on the seat, and then bent over in front of me and told me to take her then and there. I peeled out of my clothes and took her from behind and enjoyed it just being the two of us out in the middle of the desert. I loved taking her from behind and leaning to the side just enough to watch her breasts sway to our love making. Ginger enjoyed making love outdoors also as she came in a matter of a minute. . Bummer said Shiraz can we do anything to help? Well I am about to talk to Shaukat tomorrow and its pretty much up to him, lecherous bastard,.. at which point both their eyes list up. As in he could be persuaded over drinks at our place? They asked. What’s wrong with trying? Sohail remained silent.Next day he met Shaukat and got the usual u know how things are not enough planes too many officers etc. And just when he was about to leave he asked, How’s your wife? And how is your lovely daughter. Softly I whisper “Never … sometime will never be”. Tears run down my heated face. You spot the Christmas present hanging from your doorknob, look around again and tear away the paper. When you open my wedding-ring box and take out the ‘mood-ring’ it is grey. You fall apart, aging 20 years in one second. You too can’t hold back your tears. Less than ten feet apart we mourn in solitude of what never has been. Green Actually I didn’t want to join the reunion of the Seaside High school. I had.