The goodbyes were tearful. Father tried to force me not to go. Mum wasalmost collapsing in tears, barely holding on to the hope that Applebycould reve...se all of this before it was too late. Kayleigh just huggedme. We didn't have to say anything to each other.We exited the front gates of the castle, both of us dressed completelyin black and my hair tied back in a simple braid, down towards thecourtyard where the guillotine had been erected."I will go first," Philip said to me. "I cannot bare to. You'll just have to lie back and enjoy it!" She was laughing helplessly. While I was shopping I saw a pink taffeta evening gown with a bolero jacket and decided to buy it. The clubs all had dancing and I suspected that long gowns would be mandatory. I picked out three bras, one strapless and all in pastel shades of satin. I chose matching panties and thongs, a garter belt, two satin slips in black and white, a camisole and a half-slip. I went back to my flat to change. I quite liked the feel of. It's my fault." It's not your fault," Chris put his arm around me. "Don't say that, okay? Don't ever say that." I'm sorry." I had my eyes shut tight and I didn't want to cry, but it was coming."You don't have to be sorry either," Chris was kissing me, holding me with both arms now. "You didn't do anything wrong." We're going to have to go back in a couple days anyway," Mark said. "The state police guy needs to talk to us. Maybe that judge too. As soon as my dad makes sure we're not going. When we got there shewindow shopped in several stores, leaving me to continue wondering whatshe intended. She wore a secret smile as we stopped in a lingerie shopand she admired some sexy sleepwear. Was that it? Was she going totreat herself to some items that would show off her body in the bedroom,with the intention of teasing me visually? She switched to looking atpanties. Turning to me she asked, "What size would fit you, dearest?" Iwas stunned. But it made sense, if she was.