He didn't make a habit of using a 'manual release' to prepare for Dream -- after so many years, he could get to Dream faster than he could get to clim...x -- but sometimes the endorphins made it easier.And Will knew he couldn't dive straight in with his usual aplomb. Even after (ahem) releasing Janelle, she had influence. If he took an active role in Dream, his subconscious would wander and he'd end up locking on to her, and then she'd be everywhere. So he had to go back to the way he did it in. The hard, flint look there was as good as a bucket of ice water for me. The momentary fascination I had for her, physically, was quickly washed away by the thought that this girl could be real trouble.“Tell you what, princess.” I said, standing up straight and stepping closer. “I will dress, or not dress as I like and how I behave with my friends is of little concern to you. Debbie has been a friend for years and if this offended her, she has never been shy of correcting any behavior she found. We knew this was a wild area. I didn't want to shoot anything but didn't want to be a meal either. We, or they, were lucky. All we saw were squirrels and the like. One deer saw us and quickly left. We came to the entrance building and I broke in and found the office. In there were keys for the jeep we had seen. I went out and tried to crank it but the battery was dead. I found a charger and hooked it up and we waited while the charger did its thing. It was a big charger and I figured this. “The two of them asked whether I was up for changing who I was and how I thought about women. I told them my background and how I wanted to change, but that I didn’t know whether I could. They broke me down further until I promised I’d change. I pleaded with them for help to change.“Then they beat me up verbally about the subject of love, believe it or not. They wanted my definition and emotional response about it. I confessed I had no idea, and that all my interactions with members of the.