Instead, it was that I became her, standing before the mirror and admiring the soft curves that my body now had. I was becoming obsessed with her.I wo...ld awaken from my slumber, completely aroused, knowing that what I secretly wished was far beyond any possible reality. By day, I would let my eyes feast upon her long, light brown hair, clear blue eyes and full lips. I would sigh as she passed, and I would watch her cute sway of her hips, rocking like a sexual metronome. Earlier this week, she. The next week on patrol I talked with Thomas about all the cuckold stuff he told me about, and about the comments that boy made. I also told him that I had gone back to those porn sites and was intrigued by a lot of what I read and saw there. Thomas could easily sense that I was hinting at something and he asked, “What are you saying, Ed? Do you have an interest in seeing and touching a black cock?I didn’t expect Thomas to jump to that conclusion so quickly, and I was getting nervous about. Sorry I lost track of time, but Rick is very nice to talk to. Honey since it is so late why don't you go on home. Rick said he will drive me home later. It shouldn't be too long." What could I say? Was I going to say, "No! get your ass home now." No way. I told her she could have a fling in no uncertain terms, more than once, and now I had to live with it, whether I liked it or not. "Sure honey, that will be fine, have fun," I said, and left the club.Back at home, I couldn't do anything. I. He kept stressing that he was genuine, single, and was looking for a special girl like me. There was no stress, he said, just pop up and see how I felt. If I didn't find that I liked acting in the female role then I could leave immediately and we'd call it a day.As I said earlier, I had been following this pointless pattern for several years and, at 25, really was feeling the need to express my femininity with someone else, just in case I did realize I was a transsexual and wanted to take it.