I wonder if I could practice somehow. Maybe go out to bars and see what it felt like to 'be myself', I guess.Ugh.Not long after I found out about mast...rbation, and then the internet, I discovered stories describing BDSM relationships, and it resonated somewhere deep inside of me. I wanted to be a dominant. I wanted control. But that inequality was so alien to how I was raised that I felt tremendous guilt about it and never told a soul about my desires. The guilt, however great, never stopped me. Bill had Alzheimer’s and remembered little and almost never recognized us. Every visit he would call us by someone in his history's name. Sometimes it was funny as he often mistook Linda for his deceased wife Betty or some old girlfriend. I would giggle when he would do this and grab Linda's ass, or her boobs or make some lewd suggestion. Today was one of those days. He thought Linda was Betty. When Linda reminded him today was his birthday he smiled big and asked, "When do I get my usual. No head, no foreplay, just get it in and get it done." Thanks MJ, you're a peach." Come on in the bathroom with me Ralph. You can do me while I'm getting ready to go."In the bathroom she took off her robe, spread her legs and leaned forward over the sink. She supported herself with one hand and said, "From behind Ralph, do me from behind."As Ralph slid his cock into her Mary Jane was using her other hand to brush her teeth and when that chore was done she picked up a hairbrush and started. Move slowly or I’ll have to shoot you.’ He smiled and the way he said that I knew he would and enjoy it too. I looked down at Josh, hoping it showed in my eyes to just do what they wanted and I would be alright. His face showed nothing but rage as he laced his hands behind his head and slowly stood. He walked slowly across the room unlocked his hands and put them against the wall. Officer Derek looked at Dex and motioned with his gun ‘Now you. Don’t do anything stupid either.’ I could feel the.