I turn to the left to the right,and all the way around to get a good look from all sides. I want to cryagain. I look like I always wanted to, I look...like how I have alwaysfelt. I dont see the boy I use to be. I mean he is there, and I can seeglimpses of him in my reflection, but the sheer femininity surroundingme, engulfing me is allowing me to surrender to my feminine side. Thefarther, deeper, or however you want to put it, into this femininity,into my femininity, the lighter I seem to. Kissing for Babs meantFrench kissing and I was actively encouraged to stroke and caress herbreasts. Slow dances at discos were for long kisses and Babs putting myhand under her top and me to worm my hand under her bra if she waswearing one.Babs family was like mine, a matriarchy. Babs mother was French, she washead of the family which explained Babs own attitude. The women ruledinher family as they did in mine. This assumption of female superioritywould influence the rest of my life and I have. The silk represents a funeral shroud, for the one the sword is intended to be used against. And it is not a threat or warning, there would be no warnings if that was the case. I told you about my meeting Uncle Don the other night. What I did not tell you, was that I mostly in jest said I was considering taking up the dao, and cutting open the Silent Slasher and feeding his liver to Fang. Well, this is his response. He sent me a dao, so I can do exactly that.”But then I realized I was wrong.. Pahle ma ne uske kapdo pr pani daal diya, sonu ne apne kapde change kr liye fir ma ne bathroom me fisalne ka natak kiya or sonu unhe room me utha ke le aaya fir ma ne sonu se malish karwai or fir chudai bhi. Mere ghar me lage camre me unki chudai record ho rahi thi.Tabhi me ghar aa gaya or un dono ko range hatho pakad liya sonu mere ghar se chla gaya. Next day me usse milne uske ghar gaya wo bahut jijhak raha tha mene use bahut bura bhla kha or wo kuch na bola. Next day sonu ne mujhse sorry.