This is CRAZY!!!” I laughed and told her it was quite alright with me, just not to jerk my arm out of socket to beat anything with! During the nex... 15 minutes my arm rubbed over her big breast, my hand grazed her bottom, thigh and damn close to her pussy numerous times as she clutched me to her! She kept apologizing and I continually had to reassure her AND the other girls who suddenly were travelling in a clump around me that I would get them through safely! When we finally escaped, they. I know that sounds very strange and pathetic but it really wasn’t as sad as it sounds. I had actually planned on enlisting in the army after I dropped out of college the previous spring but family events intervened. My parents had a long term if somewhat distant relationship. But then what relationship isn’t a bit distant after twenty plus years. I had noticed a bit more estrangement of late, but through the filter of my egotism I thought that had more to do with my dropping out of college. I want him to hold me, and kiss me, and do things I am not equipped forwith me ....Then I wake up, crying.I dont know what to do about this.I dont know who I can talk to.I know dreams aren't real, but it comes from somewhere, but where?And its not just the dream. Sometimes, I look at myself in the mirror, andI look .... wrong, somehow. I look and I half-expect to see the girl frommy dream looking back at me.And the fact she doesn't is a grief I cant even begin to describe ....I've got to pull. Stick your asshole up to the ceiling and reach forward. you comply and feel my cock stretching your tight pussy whole. You try to squeeze it, milk it with your pussy but it's too fat. Your sopping wet as your nipples rub against the sheets. You reach down to play with your clit and I tell you "no....reach straight out" yes Sir you reply as I pump harder, deeper into you. You're so close to cuming but I tell you you're not permitted until I'm ready ... "yes Sir" you reply ... good girl as I.