More than once, she wanted to ask him if he needed a hand. She was so wicked that sometimes she’d even imagine him jerking off when she masturbated....Unable to come up with another reason, after replaying the dates in his head and recalling the conversations that he had with each date and sharing those with his sister, he wondered if it was his kissing that was ruining his chances for him. Pretending to be embarrassed to ask her, he asked her to kiss him to see if he was doing something wrong. Ram had a doubt but still he never messed around with Armand and never really wanted to either. Armand had a habit of the naked people; heavy drinking. He would come to the room very late at night and would throw up or urinate in the sink multiple times until he passed out on the floor. Ram later learnt that Armand had mentioned about Ramesh to some of his friends that was kind of sweet, Ram thought when Ram met Jacob. As the first semester ended, Ramesh stayed back to join the summer classes. All day I wondered what it would feel like to have my balls sac pulled behind my legs with no mercy. What it would feel like to be in his position? I even cruised the net looking for pictures or videos of men in that position. But I didn't know what the device is called. Finally, when I ran a search for 'cbt devices', I saw it. It's called "The Humbler" and comes in either hard plastic or finished wood. With or without padlocks. With or without electrical stimulation. All I knew for sure is. If you weren’t like that then you would know that some boys aren’t like that. I hope you can tell me that you weren’t like that, Dad.’ He didn’t know how to reply. His silence spoke volumes to me. I gave him a big hug, ‘Oh dad, I forgive you for being like that. I assure you, Howard is not that way. I know he likes sex and wants sex. I do too, especially now that I have had sex, especially I want to have sex with him. But neither of us is going to do it just for our own pleasure. Neither of us.