For days after the procedure, especially in the morning, Mustapha wouldhold my belly in his arms and wish me good morning with a kiss on mycentre of f...mininity. This had to remind me every day, at the start of theday, that I was his. Every one of those kisses would send waves of pureelectricity through my whole body. They charged the jewel with a spiritualenergy that would then be slowly released throughout the day. While mybrain was now wired as that of a woman, a woman in love, my body (I. “Oh, yeah,” Béla sighed as Jake’s warm, soapy rag began to concentrate on that sensitive area between her legs. “Do that for about an hour, okay?”Jake smiled, knowing he was in her good graces again, and softened his scrubbing motions. Soon Béla was sighing and her stomach muscles were twitching. With a brief cry she jutted her pelvis up hard against his soapy hand as she orgasmed.“God, you’re incredible,” Jake whispered, staring down in awe at her naked body lying in two inches of dirty, tepid. Higgins threw a graduation party for us at the Hilton Country Club. I gave its full name so that you would know how posh it was. All of the men wore tuxedos and all of the women had new ball gowns. It was really something to see, and the Higgins went whole hog. There was a live band and we all danced until we dropped. I must admit in all honesty that I had a good time, but it was mostly because of the company I kept. Marlene never let me out of her sight, but she did allow me to dance with our. To write of itself as other than an it, is stressful, reminding it of the way it used to think when it was a person, and the nightmarish pain that it now associates with the struggle it put up in fighting its surrender. You see, it's not that it lives without pain--on the contrary, it lives with pain every moment of its life. Just that it understands now that pain, abuse, degradation, humiliation, torture, punishment, service, and solitude are the states of existence that it was meant to.