"MMMMMM!!!!" I screamed, gagged and muffled. "MMMHHMM!" again. I was instantly out of breath and trying involuntarily to push the painful intrusion ou... of my ass. She must have noticed, because she just shook her head and said matter-of-factly, "You don't want to do that." And she twisted the plug around a couple times while I writhed. Somehow it was also worse to watch her do this to me no more than a foot or two from my face; seeing my body tormented right in front of my eyes with no way to. It would end up going much farther than I anticipated.Three months earlier I had found a small lingerie boutique in the downtown area of Hoboken, NJ that catered to crossdressers. It was only 20 minutes from my house so I visited several times, but never had the courage to buy anything. After 3 or 4 visits, the owner (Jessica) approached me and said she noticed I came in often. She told me there was nothing to fear and then offered to do a private fantasy transformation for $200. I decided to. I accept that there are a huge number of women who have decided that they cannot be true to themselves and conform to societies expectations. Whether that is due to their inherent sexuality, the self perception or whatever the cause, they have elected to stand apart from the mass. My problem with Elaine making such a decision, right now in any case, is that she does not have the lifetime of experience that led these other women to make that choice for themselves.The question is: how do I get. It seemed that every time I turned my head, I'd see something new I wanted to capture with my camera. She just chuckled at what a shutterbug I was. Every time my eye passed over her, it lingered, and I found myself wondering if she would let me take pictures of her. We'd talked about that a few times during our e-mail conversations and she had suggested that others had found her very photogenic, but that she might need some alcohol in her before she'd consent to a private photo shoot.At one.