Mommy!"Mom said, "You were crying and screaming... NO!...NO!...NO!"I looked into Mom's eyes and I could see she was frightened and crying.She pulled m... to her and held me tighter than ever before. It felt goodand Mom smelled so nice. It had a calming effect on me. For the firsttime in a long time I felt safe. I squeezed Mom back and said,"I love you Mom. But I am afraid, Mom. I am afraid the doctors are goingto change me back to being a boy. No more orientation, Mom, please Mom.Don't let them. I got out my bottle of poppers and inhaled deeply. Twice. I offered her the bottle. "Tell me about the man who last fucked your hole." "Lick my hole, whore!" she commanded. I knelt and slowly began to lick wet circles around her hole. I brushed my tongue across and center and then began a wet, sloppy rim job. I could taste the lubrication. I could taste his cum. I probed her hole with my tongue. She inhaled the poppers, moaned with delight, and started to talk. "My boyfriend is a man. A real. How could he test? How could he do that, knowing what they knew, living as they lived? Calix felt it was a betrayal at the most fundamental level of their brotherhood. They were familia and family didn't treat each other that way.Rico had said that Alicia had convinced him. 'She wore me down, ' he'd said. As he'd thought about it, long into the night, Calix couldn't come to grips with that. Rico made concessions to the young girl he claimed to love – and Calix had no basis for doubt on that. . And I don't know what I'd end up doing. On the other hand, itIS only a short walk away, and if I ate one chocolate bar, there's no waymum and dad would find out...I weigh up the pros and cons in my mind for over fifteen minutes beforerealising that the more time I spend making the decision, the less timeI'll have to actually carry out my 'plan'. I head upstairs and reach intomy wardrobe for my grey winter coat- the only unisex coat or jacket thatI own- and my most unisex pair of trainers..