" i knew this is what she wanted, actually what we all wanted. the lights came off as i went up to rachel french kissing her sensually as joe looked a... us. rachel began unzipping my pants as i started to take off her blouse. she had topless rubbing my cock as my pants and shirt were finally off still kissing rachel. joe had now taken off his shirt still standing watching us.after kissing for a few more minutes she turned and glanced at joe pulling his belt strap closer to her to make out with. "Viagra can make a soft dick limp but it can't refill a pair of balls that have shot their load. Was the man was saving himself for later in the evening or did the couple had some weird rule that fucking wasn't cheating if he didn't come.After this disappointment, we toured the playroom. A shibari artist was tying up the yellow living statue. He had already tied a karada, a body harness around her chest and breasts and was binding her arms behind her back. The red and orange statues were. When he got off the phone I started crying. This had to stop.The next two hours were a frenzy of trying to erase what my pathetic life had become. I deleted all my porn which I had so lovingly curated. I felt ashamed and disgusted of myself, maybe if I really tried I could satisfy Sarah and become a man again? Maybe if I told her how sorry I was she would accept me back and we could try to live a normal life?I spent the rest of the day hating myself and regretting what I had done.The next day I. I could see the muscles in his forearmtense as if to say that he was a man too.Jess took my hand and said, "Are you OK, honey?"I smiled, "Fine. I'm just emotional. Must be the ovulating."Jess smiled, "I know you. You were thinking about your father. It'sOK."I feebly protested, "It was something else..." I was having visions ofmy father walking me down the aisle and tearing up. Of me looking atJess in a tuxedo waiting for me. Of my father telling me he loved meand would always love me.I.