It is a huge step for me. For years I have lived with the deep fear of people seeing my naked body, and struggled with the feelings of panic and dread...that have haunted me in my nightmares. But now, for the first time, I have the courage to show myself.I watch his eyes, as they take in the sight of this nineteen year old virgin's private parts. He glances up at me, and I give him a shy smile. He is still moving the scanner over my abdomen, but I suddenly feel the fingers of his left hand slip. "I can't guarantee anything, but maybe I can get you heard by the right people. I don't like to brag, but I can make a phone call to most of the talent agents in Hollywood and they'll listen to me. I can ask for a meeting with the CEO of National Records and he'll grant it. He may not like me very much — he and I have butted heads many times over the years — but he'll listen to me. And if he hears something that he thinks will make money for him, he'll jump all over it." Do you really think. Filled with self lust I went back to my room with a towel and folded it and placed it in my bed were my bum would be. I quickly turned out the light and hoped into bed making sure my bum was on the towel. I felt so naughty as my fingers found my pussy lips. Slowly I teased my little pussy as I felt it twitch with every stroke. Then that pee feeling started and I made myself relax into it telling myself its ok I have a towel. I kept tickling and my heart started racing I felt hot flushes and. It's difficult to describe the feelings I had during the time I had sexual access to Mara. To say that I was 'excited' is correct, but it fails to capture the intensity of that. To say it was 'exhilarating' comes closer to the way it felt, and yet, that still seems to fall short of conveying my emotions.But I admit that a large part of what was so exciting and exhilarating about the whole experience was having Mara's husband, Tomas, witnessing it; and though I did feel a certain degree of.