This time I didn't shove it away. I embraced it and found, like the sun it warmed me. This time from the inside out. My stomach flittered with wings o... 10,000 Monarch butterflies and my heart, my poor heart that before had been made to feel so out of place felt as if it were mending. I was no longer afraid of that feeling. Suddenly, just to have him cross the street and be with me would be enough for now. I would not be singular and alone in the face of all love that walked all around me.. "What is going on?" I said more to myself. I followed walked passed the mirror looked in to it and had to do a double take I had wings it scared me I nearly peed myself my wing reacted to my fear, they flapped out of control, I started hyperventilating.Lilly conjured up a paper bag and passed it to me; I started to breath into it, it took what felt like five minuets to relax but when I did Lilly took my hand guided me to the shower wet room. She had a strange relaxing way about her."Relax close. “Yes.”I felt something drop; my chest tightened and my old vagina clenched. No way, I thought; I’m not going to bed with a 16 year old boy!I’ll just flirt a little more though, that’s ok.I smiled; “Excellent. Now you tell me about yourself, and I’m going to listen.” I told him.Normal shit; he had a younger sister, mom and dad. School, some sport, no girlfriend. He couldn’t see that I was stroking my groin as we talked. Tickling myself fruitlessly.“I like talking to you.” I told him, “There must. You expect me to live with you in the middle of nowhere, with no restaurants, salons, high end stores or trips around the world? I suppose you would want me to sleep with you too?”“Sandy, I am only doing this because Steve loved you, even though you never loved him, and somehow I think deep down inside there might be some redeeming qualities about you, when someone gets under your nasty, phony exterior. I do not know yet if I even want to fuck you. The idea of sex with you is disgusting to.