She was taken aback for a minute and then said “bhaiya kya kar rahe ho?” I replied “sushila tum mujhe bahut pasand ho aur aaj tum mujhe nehlaoge...you will make me bath today)”.She said “Nai bhaiya. Aap itne bade ho main kaise nehlaungi”. I said “kyun? Main kaunsa tumhe kuch karne ko keh raha hu. Bas bath ke liye hi toh bol raha hu”. She was a bit hesitating. Then my mind said to me “shahid isko pakad ke khich le bathroom mein tab no nai bol payegi.” And I did the same. I holder her and brought. “Hey goddammit!” I hollered.The welt on my ass burned like a bee sting as I turned to see her raise the yardstick for the second lash.“One more outburst and I’ll have you gagged Mr. Mann, I expect you to take it like a man should...silently,” Warned the Judge.I fumed silently as the Judge lower the hammer on me in her own special way. She slapped the damn stick off my ass viciously for the second time. I could hear ringing in my ears from the blow. I bit my lips in silent agony. Oh shit, what. “Karen, I’m in a lot of trouble here in America. A whole lot. Please can you contact Lappies and...”“I’ll put you straight through, Bryn. He’s still here, he just didn’t want to take any more calls. You talk to him and then he can give me the details. If needs be, I’ll catch a later train if we need to get things sorted out for you. Look after yourself!”“Ja? Bryn? What’s up?”I was so relieved to hear his voice that I had to take a couple of deep breaths before explaining the. I wasn't walking.Walking is too generous. I slid one foot just in front of me, then turnedmy entire body and slid the other foot out. I was buck-naked, save forthe torn panties I clutched in my hand and that barely covered myencased, formerly male genitalia.I made slow progress.I felt too worked over to cry. I was beyond mourning for myself. Instead,I felt a stillness. The calm of a new reality. A bleak one. One I knew Iwould never escape.No one in the lab noticed. No one helped. No one opened.