I understood everything the moment I heard the words out of Moog's mouth, but it took several seconds longer for the idea to sink into my head. My boy...riend was taking bets on me. I caught him in the process of making a bet on weather I would let him fuck me or not.It was terrible. I ran away crying. I cried all the way back to my room, and then cried for a long time into the night as I explained what happened first to my roommate and then to my best friend. William left me devastated,. "Dad, I'm going out of town on business for a couple of days and I told Becky she could call you if she needed anything. Is that okay with you?"Oh God, I thought, this is bad. It's not right, what is going to happen is not right. Steve's voice cut into my thoughts, "Dad? Are you there?" I managed to croak out that I would be available if Becky needed me and as I put the phone down I prayed that what was going to happen would not end in disaster for all concerned.Steve's flight left at 3:15 and. Johnny told me later that they usually wore tuxes, but they wore suits tonight because they didn't want Hank to feel second class or anything. He said Hank would be in a tux at the next dance. (He was.)When we were all seated, Michael officially welcomed us. It was nice. Then we ate. Dinner was wonderful. We had the best tasting cream of potato soup ever and a salad with the best ranch dressing to start. Then we had grilled chicken with peas and corn, stuffing, mashed potatoes, and my mom's. "Mum does love you, you know. Old You, I mean. She always said what agood lawyer you were, very intelligent and great integrity and so on.You were always very thorough and spotted things others missed, shealways said. Do you think you might have been suffering depressionbefore you split up?" What do you mean?" asked Mandy."It's just that I remember you at home when we were all together oftenbeing quite sad." Was I?" Mandy seemed surprised. "Maybe I was. Now I hardly ever feelsad. Scared witless.