I sat out in the garden enjoying the late summer sun, schools were back and life was getting back to normal after the summer break.It was just after 2...m when Amanda called and asked if I knew how to set up a desktop computer, “Yes” I told her as I had done it many times before, she told me she had a client called Mrs Wilton who had an old computer that was left by her ex husband and she wanted to see if she could get it working for her daughter who could use it for her studies. I told her that. A guy a little younger than us was walking toward the side entrance where I was parked and asked if I needed any help. He wanted to know if she was alive. I told him yes, that she had just passed-out from too much Vodka. I asked him to help me carry her to our 3rd floor hotel room.He ended up taking her legs and I took her arms. We made it to the stairwell and the second floor before I realized that he was pretty wasted too. He almost dropped her a couple times on the way to the third floor. I. And now I was different, changed. Thearousal I knew my new body was feeling, this scattering whirlwind that Ibarely understood. Like I was drunk and frightened and excited all atthe same time - and it seemed to be a wave that touched every part ofme, a feeling that didn't focus or resolve but just built and grew intoa song that sung from my every nerve.Breathe. Just breathe.I turned my eyes away, rose from the chair, wrapped the robe eventighter around myself, held myself closely as I turned my. What I really wanted was just to sit by the pool and drink, whether or not anyone else was with me. The bars had never really been my thing, but that didn't always stop me from going anyway.Reluctantly I went out, and did manage to have a decent time. A few people I hadn't seen in a while were out too, so my friend hadn't been completely full of shit. And as always, there were beautiful girls out, making me wish I had the guts to just take one of them home. It had been months since the last.