. change, and I don'tthink you realize just how hard this is going to be! It won't be justwearing a dress or skirt, it's how you talk and walk as well... And on topof that, aren't there men out there who are already living as women?Don't you think they'll have a better chance at this? I mean, they'reused to being women, and some might even have boyfriends, so they'll havea built in advantage from the start!" Yeah, I thought of that, but it's just possible that I might win anyway!According to the. The sound of the vibrations of my phone on the wooden bench are familiar. A sound I subconsciously wait for. I pick up my phone and a message reads: ‘I’m coming over in 5. Hope thats OK’ It’s from her. But she never comes over. I take one last drag and put the stub out. Pick up my still steaming mug and bring it inside. I sit down back at my computer, open a blank page, and put fingers to keyboard to record my thoughts. My writing is interrupted- *Knock knock knock* then my phone vibrates in my. He followed my advice except for the shoes. He insists ofbuying and wearing very feminine flats. He's taller than me by fiveinches, so transitioning in the public eye will be more difficult and hemight become a victim of taunts from alpha males. I had a feminine lookeven during the experimental period when I wanted to become independentand be a real man. I wasn't a very convincing guy but I became a verygood looking girl early on in my treatment. That isn't going to be thecase with Paul.The. "Actually - My first reaction was to think to myself, 'His penis is so small.' That's why I laughed, because Emmy thought it was huge. I thought to myself how big my penis was compared to the guy in the movie. I'm kind of skinny, so maybe it just seems big. But when it's hard, it's really thick and I guess it's long. I don't know what to compare it to - but it's a whole lot bigger than the guy in the movie. It seemed obvious that Emmy had never seen a boy naked, and the image in the movie must.