My friend put her hand gently on my back.“You ok? Looks like you just saw a ghost!”I found my voice.“Uh wow. I uh, I really don’t know about t...is.”The flatmate looked disappointed again and my heart sank. This was the third or fourth time we had built up her expectations during the evening and then let her down. And this time I felt especially bad after teasing her about this just a few minutes before.My friend spoke up quietly.“What’s the problem? You seemed game for anything a few minutes. "It's just... I really don't know how to explain it. You guys know how much I love both of you. I think what we have is marvelous and I don't want to see it end, but I also sometimes get so frustrated that I don't have the same love that you two so obliviously feel for each other. You have such a bond and I just sometimes wish I could find the same thing; you know someone just for me."Her words had come tumbling out, like once she started, she couldn't stop. She buried her face into her hands,. ..”“Love isn’t an exclusive thing, Chan. I thought Joe would make you realize that. Me as well.”“But love and being in love...”“I’m in love with Joe. With Cheryl. With Li. I feel strongly for you. As strong as anyone. But it’s new, so that’s understandable. I love making love to you, but with Joe, I think it’s even better, don’t you?”“Uhm.”“Be honest, Chan. It’s ... everything.”“Yes. I feel exactly the same. Being with you is amazing. But sometimes ... when I’m not crying out your name, I .... Later that evening we settled down and chatted over a few drinks quickly the conversation between the girls got on to sexual preferences and Amanda started on about the benefits of a big thick cock and from what was said it became apparent that Susan knew all about Amandas fling with Jerry, I could tell that Susan seemed embarrassed for me and tried to change the conversation but as the drink flowed Amanda continually returned to the same old story, eventually Susan commented that she thought.