I had no direction.I spun about as the last winter leaves holding fast to the oak, spinning and fluttering about yet always coming back to the same pl...ce. I had a small cave that I kept warm and dry with a small fire. One night I dreamed as I slept. A hawk asked me if I wanted feathers so that I might fly. I said yes. The hawk said I must die and be reborn to gain feathers. I was ready to say yes when a great brown bear said no, there was much for me to do yet. The bear wrapped me within its. They cost over a dollar a test so let’s just finish it. I don’t want you to get another infection.’ When I pulled the strip out she bent and watched as I compared the strip to the chart on the package. It showed 6.6. ‘Something is wrong.’ I said. ‘On Monday, call your doctor and ask what could drive the number up that high, and ask how we get it back down!’ ‘I know how to get it back down. I have some more of the medicine he gave me last time. I’ll start it right now.’ She left the laundry area. It takes me a moment to find Mr. Lewis a glass. I don't know if the threat of disconnection is having an affect on me or if it's this intimidating man. I mean, yeah, he's been polite but there's something about him that makes my skin tingle.I hand him the glass and become aware of his eyes moving up and down my body. A thought flickers through my mind. No, not a thought, really, but a brief image of this black bear of a man handling me... roughly."Would you care to explain why you have. Rarely do I find myself physically, emotionally or socially intimidated. This dear reader you may find hard to understand, after all I have written thousands of words here, expressing my wishes for her to take a lover! But, I do so not as some subordinate to another man’s lust, but as a man offering a gift to his wife, his love, his life. I freely admit that I enjoy the torment and uncertainty of the possibilities that such a liaison could bring, but, I see no threat. You have to understand.