Life in a maximum security prison, for a man who had preyed on helpless ex-cons, would be a living hell.Jay Summers life as he had known it was over b... the time my the first anniversary of freedom arrived. Not only that, but Lucy had a new boyfriend. One who, like almost everyone else knew nothing of our relationship. We both agreed to never tell a soul. Her kids didn’t know for sure. We had managed to keep it from them for that first year, however I wasn’t sure how much longer we could manage. Maybe she figured it was okay because I was doing it.But I fucking wasn't and she fucking knew it! She KNEW she was everything to me. GOD. I was going round and round in my head, looking for some fucking answer and it was driving me fucking crazy. I kept bouncing around in there, my thoughts careening off my freaking skull, pounding over me. I. JUST. COULDN'T. DO. THIS. ANY. MORE.I kept making excuses. I kept trying to figure out what I had done to cause this. I kept pinning this shit back on. "Ruby told them, "Let's eat. We'll come up with something. Those outhouse Romeos back there in Washington need a shake up."Jimmy shoved his chair back and stood. Ruby looked up at her husband and saw the determined expression on his face. "Don't be too hasty Hon," she warned him.Jimmy walked across the dining room and caught the four men just as they got ready to leave. "Read day after tomorrow's morning edition of our paper. I am going to gut both your parties." Neither answered. They turned. When we weren't on the ball field, there was nothing to do but watch television or drink beer -- or, if you were really feeling festive -- both.But we came home with filthy road uniforms, one more kid who had just lost his virginity a thousand miles from his home state of Wyoming, and seven more wins.The Baby Birds were in first place!My road dispatches to the Orioles brass in Baltimore were more detailed and more punchy than the ones I composed at home, when I was always eager to pack up and.