I find I am deeply concerned about Nimrod's health, I would sincerely be heart broken as would Saul."Lean on me," I tell him and let some of my energy...flow to him. My emotions and love and understanding. I know he feels it right away because he shivers as my energy mingles with his. We make better progress back to the little cabin. My home too now. I think.When we are back home, I help Nimrod careful in the high backed rocking chair. He gingerly settles back. I sit down at his feet."Alright,. It was beautiful scenery, but Foster would have much preferred to be enjoying it from behind the windows of his car, with his jazz CD's playing on the stereo and a warm heater blowing air gently around his legs.He wasn't even dressed for the weather. He was wearing a t-shirt that said I gave up sex and drinking and it was the hardest 20 minutes of my life, and jeans. No jacket. He wasn't expecting to have to walk, for chrissake."Well, if I'm gonna, I better get," he said to himself, and got. We met in a conference room that was off the main part of the office and lent itself to some privacy. We met and worked the issues then I tried to break the ice a bit by talking about the upcoming weekend and some plans I had with friends at the beach and mentioned that I was looking forward to being there with one particular friend’s wife as she had a very nice body like Janie’s.The room fell silent and I got a stare like “How Dare you talk about such a thing with me in the room”. Then she. Par mujhe maalum tha, ki iske saamne mera kuch nahi hone wala hai. Woh bahut sundar thi.Ab main uske baare me sochne lagaa tha, aur usko soch soch ke muth maarne laga tha. Mujhe maalum tha ki aisa karke kuch honewala nahi hai. Aur main kuch kar bhi nahi sakta tha. woh jab bhi market jaane ke liye baahar aati, main use ghurne lagta tha. par woh kisike taraf nahi dekhti thi, woh apna sir neeche karke hi chalti thi.Aise hi din jaa rahe the, aur main sirf uske baare me soch ke muth maarta tha..