He can’t see me this way, know the depth of my pain, my need. But he touches me and I am lashed by that touch, rendered powerless. So I stay. Pullin... me, back to belly, he slips his arms around my waist, pulling me down to lie at his side. I have never felt so encompassed, so completely touched. His arms were only touching my waist, our bodies only touching slightly, but to hear my body, heart, and soul tell it, I was a part of this man. Every inch of what we were, joined. Encompassed, touched…. As I looked at him Inoticed how slender he was. He was built like a girl.I thought he was a girl when I saw him on stage, onthe first concert."I love your shirt," I said, "it's sort oftransparent." It's a girl's shirt," he replied. "My girlfriend'sactually. We're the same size." It's lovely, I wish I had one like that," I saidenviously."You like it? Here, you can try it on if you like.It'll probably fit you, you're as skinny as me."He unbuttoned his shirt and took it off. I noticed hissmooth. ..”She finishes what she’s saying and stands there naked, except for her stocking and heels, and surrounded by cameras. Flicking her hair back over her shoulder again and smiling for the cameras. As usual, we leave our guest exposed for a couple of seconds longer than she may be comfortable with, and then... The studio door cranks noisily open, daylight flooding the dark set from outside and silhouetting this weeks dog of choice ... He strides forward, heaving his handler behind him ... Taking. Sierra wasn't the first person that I was with but she was the first person that I felt comfortable with, seeing that I am bi and not out of the closet. When she turned the light on in the bathroom, there it was an 8 inch dildo hanging off the wall. Sierra blurted out "oh wow, that answers some questions, and raises a few more." I could feel the blood flowing to my face and was speechless. She turned to me and giggled and just said that's nice but we can save it for later. I really.