I get true satisfaction from completing any command, whether external, or self-generated. This is why robots are often so turned on — an interesting...term in our case, to say the least — when we actually use our self-will. This is largely because we tend to give ourselves logical, rational commands that are easy to complete, and which give us satisfaction upon that completion. There is no stronger driving force encouraging the development of self-will than this, which may have been a fortuitous. "Brit, I love you more than you could possibly imagine. The reason I've been cold toward you," he said, "is because I'm attracted to you in ways I shouldn't be. I was afraid of lowering my guard because I could end up..." Doing exactly what you did to me?" Brit giggled. "Good. I'm glad you let down your defenses. Now I know just how much you love me."That put him in a terribly awkward position. He should admit that it had been Crystal that he was trying to seduce, to get any thought out of her. Why had Kristen said anything? Why had I mentioned it to Kristen? Rachel could be tough and also possessed a mean streak. I was nervous as I actually valued her friendship as much if not more than the fantasies I had built around her.When I got to her place she let me in and stared daggers at me for what seemed like ten minutes. I just stood there uncomfortable not knowing what to do or say. She didn’t even ask me to sit down. She stared at me and I stared at my feet.“We’ll settle this thing. " Let him get used to it," Dana said. "I mean, most guys can't imaginewhat it's like to wear a dress. Chris will be okay when he gets used toit." He may be used to it quicker than you think,' Sarah said. I shot her alook."Chris, you're my oldest friend," Dana said. "I hope this doesn't changethat. I still want to watch ballgames with you. I want to go get a beerwith you. We can still keep the best parts of being friends." Um...of course we can, Dana," I said. "This threw me for a loop,.