After a while I heard the door open slightly and I was pretending to sleep…with my eyes half closed I could see shiela watching over me from the cra...k of the door….she stood there for a long time and after a while she entered the room slowly and like a ghost stood next the bed….a part of me was scared and this looked really spooking….after a couple of minutes she sat next to me and kept looking at my body….it looked she wanted to touch me or feel me…I dunno what she wanted to do but she was. To break the shackles he pinched both my nipples very hard. When I opened my mouth to scream he put his tongue in my mouth. He then lowered his hands and put his hands over my green petticoat right over my pussy area. I tried to push his hands away.But he caught both my hands with his one hand and with his other hand he started to push further down into my petticoat and panty and started to push two fingers at a time into my pussy. I was literally taken aback and wiggled to free myself but I. I hugged him to me and had another spell of crying, and then we both went to sleep. The phone woke us as evening was coming on. Then there were more phone calls from people who wanted to know the funeral details. A little before midnight, I said I thought it was time to go to bed, and Rick agreed. Without either saying anything, we both went to my bedroom and got ready for bed. I think he came with me because he knew I could not stand being alone and I'm sure he had no. ? I desire deeply to have a woman naked before me on a bed.? To hold a leather belt in my hand and tell her to spread her legs and then bring the belt down time and again until she screams, cries and then cums incessantly.? Yet, I have never done such a thing, and it lives in my mind and torments my sensibilities.? I do not know if I could beat and whip and torture such a small beautiful creature for my pleasure and desire.? I do not know if her cries would drive me to surrender or drive me to.