That tells me you could have done that before, and instead you elected not to. So I say you’re full of shit when you call it a ‘struggle’. You l...ked it, and chose to do it, and all that internal angst was just a load of crap!”“Did I do something wrong?” I asked apprehensively. “Did I hurt you somehow?”“No,” Clarissa said, shaking her head. “But if you could just go ‘cold turkey’ because Lara asked you to, and then stick to it without any apparent trouble, you’re fooling yourself about your past. "Laura nodded again. "I do." God, I'm wet," Randi breathed. "Let's go." Can you remember how to get to my place?" Sometimes I drive by it just wanting to ring the bell." Really?" Yes. But I'm always afraid you'll be screwing somebody else. Like that pretty girl who interrupted us after that meeting. Remember?"She was referring to Sholandra, who had stormed off in tears. "I remember," Laura said."Did you ever... you know, sleep with her after that?" Is that any of your business?" Laura asked. I was a little taken aback at their forwardness . “Nice to meet you.” I replied pleasantly. “Our mom wonders if we can borrow your lawnmower?” They asked in unison. “I guess so,” I said walking out the door with them. I showed them how to start it and they took turns mowing, while I went back to my house. After the lawn was done they brought the mower back. They were both sweaty and the T-shirts they wore clung to their braless breasts from sweat. I tried not to notice, but started to fantasize. Flurry of snarky comments, then a solemn one. Apparently, there were booby-trapped toys used when the Soviets occupied Afghanistan. Don’t research that topic. You won’t be happy with humanity when you go through the results.That kind of brought me a reality check. Yes, all of this is fun. It’s a set of problems that we can toss our version of technology at, and we can find solutions, but there at the back of the room is the idea that we ARE building weapons. I just pray that they stay in the.