My body perked to His absence. I get out of the bed, i don't bother with the dressing gown, i pad barefoot on the cool wood floor. I take the toys fro... the drawer, lay them out as if they are surgical tools. I clean and admire them one by one. The little egg vibrator glistens silver, i straighten the cord, give him, fresh batteries. I massage a tube of lube in my small hand, warming it as i do. Then i grin at a big black butt plug the naughtiest one i have. The biggest. I test the red plastic. And the next morning, I'd found myself lying in my bed, shaking with embarrassment.Me with a woman! Leah! My best friend for years! The horror of that morning still haunts me: what was going to happen? How could I face her?I should have called her right away: talked to her. But that's not me: I found myself avoiding her. Slipping away when I saw her coming, coming up with an excuse to get away whenever she started a conversation. But inevitably she noticed what I was doing. And caught me once,. " "Wait a minute," I resisted. "I can't go out there wearingthis corset and falsies!" "Yes you can," she insisted. "We spent enough time in ourfashion show that it's already dark. You're lucky I'm not insistingyou wear shorts. I would insist if you had on suntan coloredstockings instead of those lovely dark ones." Poised between reluctance and excitement, I didn't move for amoment. Kelly laughed and grabbed my hand, pulling me to my feet.Tottering on my high heels I helped her clean our. I wasn't quite sure what that meant, but I guess I would try to be a good hostess.The minute Derek arrived, he made me feel uneasy. The way he looked at me. It was like being evaluated for an estimation of how good you were in bed. I assumed he would get over it when he started making the rounds to find some ladies who would enjoy his company.He was with us for about a week when John had to fly to Boston for the company for which he worked. Almost instantaneously, as John got into the cab to go.