And Im not leaving you until Im sure youre going to function somewhat normally. You want to call 911 and report me for being a friend? Go right ahead ...ady, but if I leave Im calling John and Peggy to come over here in my place. Youre in rough shape right now and maybe you dont believe it, but you need help. Now if you want to calm down and talk to me like an adult, Ill listen, but if not, youll at least listen to me and let me help you find the help you need. He was surprised when she sat. Wondering what he's doing at night and who with. It's hard being in this situation, wanting him but not being able to have him ... not to herself anyway. Getting ready for bed she started thinking about making love to him. How would he like it if she took control, making him want her was top priority because no one in her past ever did.Sitting in front of the mirror and brushing her hair, watching it glide through the brush made her daydream again about his spanking her and her liking it. He. " You want to know what he's doing right now? He's fucking that-" Stop!" Sophia could take no more, and she knew that no more could be said to defend her ex-boyfriend, "Ok, you win. You're right, I was a fool." She fought with all of her inner strength to keep the tears from surfacing again. "I just... I don't know..." Hey," Amelia's voice was now soft and comforting, "I'm not trying to judge you, I'm trying to help you. You've been one of my closest friends for a long time now, right?" Sophia. I convinced myself that he and I were destined for destruction. I kept telling myself that I wasn’t feeling for him emotionally. There was also that bond between him and Kiera. Rather than face my true feelings, I did everything I could to make things implode. The truth, and I can see it now, is that I was falling in love with him. I was so afraid of a repeat performance of all my previous relationships that I couldn’t face my feelings.It all reached the boiling point over something silly.