Right this moment, it doesn't hurt. Mainly because I don't remember. It's like I never even knew my mom or dad. I feel bad that someone died. However,...I don't even know how they died. Grandmother said she would talk to me about it tomorrow, but right now, I feel no grief. I feel worse for Nicky and my grandmother." I'm sorry!" she said again. "It's just so hard for me to imagine how you feel right now." I don't know," I said thoughtfully. "May I ask you a personal question? Did you feel. . “ “Since I’ve been cuckolding you?” Neil nodded. “You know that until they fucked me I had never experienced an orgasm before?” He looked shocked. “I thought... “ “From your tongue, yes, but not from... “ “I’m sorry.” “It’s okay,” she told him. “It wasn’t just you. No man has ever made me cum with his cock before.” “Is it because of size? Or is it because of them being black?” “I don’t know. Maybe it’s a combination of the two.” “But at least you are having orgasms now.” Claire. There is purpose in movement, even undefined, even in chance dancing. Movement toward purpose, movement in obedience to ancient music. You watch footsteps advance across windswept sands, watch purpose unfold in the sharp light of day, and in the music of sand’s endless passage you see that these two shadows have been measured by your light. Measured by the passage of time. You would obey if you could – if you were anything but a god. This is life. What are you but a god? You watch from on high. One morning before school I woke up to go and take a shower in my bathroom. I got naked and of course was horny so I decided to jerk off before I showered. So I stroked off and shot my load in the toilet, flushed and than started preparing to shower. As I was getting ready to hop in, the door opened and my mom just stood at the doorway. My towel was hanging behind the door so there no way to cover up but I don't think I could of covered up anyway. I was frozen - totally naked and still semi.