I knew what was going to happen, but not how. My doubts from the previous days flooded back: Would Ray like me? Would he find me attractive? Would he ...ompare me to Roslyn? Would I please him? What would he be like? What is he going to want me to do? Would he hurt me? What would it do to my marriage? I was scared, I was excited, I was more nervous than I had ever been. I hadn’t ever done anything like this before. Despite everything and knowing I should turn around, I kept going with Ray. I knew. Kakima du hate amar komor pechiye dhore suru korlo yala theke thapano, oh se ki thap thaper chote thap….thap….thap…..thap…..poo..oochhhh….thap thap sabda hochhe, kakimar birat mai duto thal thal kore norche, amar bichi duto kakimar pode phat…phat…sabde dhakka marche, guder chitke chitke beriye amar talpete porche, kakimar mukh theke sudu uummmhhh….uuummhh….ummhh….oohh… ummhhh…ummhh…sabda hochhe. Ei bhabe kakima pray 10 minute thapanor por theme amake bollo – ar parchi na…..ooohh…..sala…ebar tui. I'm sorry. I guess I'm not much of a man, am I!"Nancy jumped in. "Hell, it makes you more of a man than some of thechildish jerks I've met! Look, sweetheart, I'm a lesbian, but now Imet and chatted with you, well I'm wondering. From grade school tohigh school, all the guys were either too this or too that. I've mademy mistakes. You know, the nice guy everyone called a sissy."Janice looked at him, "Hey, wait a minute. Is that what you think?That because you enjoyed what we did, you are some kind. . all I ... just look at her for crying out loud, Mike. That’s...” Jason stammered after I put him on the spot in front of his new girl.“Enough to make any guy want to put down some kick-ass lyrics on a piece of paper, Jason,” I said as Kalena moved up close to her big guy, and wormed her left arm between his body and right arm.“What you got there, Cuda?” Lynette asked as she carried a couple cans of Coke over to our location.“A pretty sweet looking set of lyrics, which my man, Jason wrote the.