Why was my life such a mess? Yes, Mum, just this time, like you said every single time before. And Clara was coming, too. I felt my breakfast trying t... come back up from fear and anxiety. Wasn’t it enough that I had to meet them in summer and new year? I had a lot of practice hiding my dislike for my cousins, though, after they taught me that lesson when I was twelve, so I was pretty sure Fiona didn’t pick up on how terrified I was.I had to tell her about it, and I felt guilty for springing. At last a gate number appeared on the screen. We'll have to go, I said. Mum poured the rest of the beer down her throat and said goodbye to the lads, and with my arm firmly round her waist, she staggered out of the bar. I think you'd better use the loo I told her, it may be a while before you get another chance. She did so, and we made our unsteady way down the travolators for what seemed like miles to the departure gate. I was dreading the next bit. Mum was swaying and giggling as we went. I figured I was married too young, I led such a sheltered life, I never did much dating. So I am just dating a little."I turned my dad around and held him at arms length."Honey, it's just that I worry..." Dad, no need. You know Ian looks out for me. Besides, in Hollywood this is what we do to schmooze and party so that we get the right scripts. Yeah, some of the parties are wild compared to your home town, but this is how business gets done here."Rome walked up on us holding out a glass of. No one was with her.That was the core of her despair. She didn't want to be alone but there was no one she wanted. There was no one who could take Bob's place. No one.For now Jason was being a Saint. He was her strength. He was helping her through all of this. She deeply appreciated his help and yet, he suffered the same loss. Bob, his father, was gone too.If there was anything that she could do for Jason, it would be done. Even in her intense state of mourning, she recognized how great Jason's.