I needed to be held, to be kissed again. Not those little pecks on the cheek as he’s running out the door, but a real kiss, soft, passionate, intens.... I needed to feel hands on my body, exploring me, stroking my skin. I needed his voice in my ear, telling me how much he wanted me, even after all these years. I tried asking him, tried talking about it, he just didn’t understand. ‘I like things the way they are Lisa…why do we need to change things?’ He had rejected me so many times, pushed me. After a pause he continued, “As you’ve seen, I’m not a great hit with the ladies and so far I haven’t got lucky.”“I’m sure you’ll get laid at some point,” I replied, uncomfortably.As we communicated Declan moved ever closer to me. The next thing that I observed was that his cock was definitely hardening.As I looked up into his edgy horny eyes he asked, “Would you like to blow me, Toby?”“That’ll be a very bad idea,” I replied.“Why?” he inquired.“Declan, you are straight and not thinking too. So he started jacking off right behind my back and he cum on my ass by accident. He wiped it off with a tissue and we both went to bed. I was feeling very dissapointed.The next day as usual we went to internet cafffe and this time after playing some games for 5 hours, we went to sex toy shop to buy some lubricant and some dildos. The dildo had a diameter of 5 cm and it was about 20cm long. At first he said he was still nervous and was putting lubricant on the dildo and made it very slimy and. When I removed my hand, he left his hand on me. He wasn't moving it around or anything. He was just letting his hands rest on my pussy. I waited for him to start moving his fingers. Nothing. Maybe he was afraid to. I knew how to fix that.I took a hold of his hand and moved it up to the top of my panties. When I knew his fingers were above my panties, I pressed his hand against my body and slowly slid his fingers between my panties and bare skin. I kept moving his hand down until I could feel.