." C'mon, Sally, don't tell me you've never been to one before! I knowthey have them in Boston; in fact, I've been to one there. Y'know thatplace in K...nmore Square, just across from the subway terminal? I forgetthe name..." Oh, you mean Petroz? Yeah, I've been there a few times! Isn't it hot?" So I'll be there tomorrow just after 7, right? Everybody who goes toTony's dresses really hot, so wear your sexiest outfit! See youtomorrow!" And Deedee hung up before Sally could protest. Just. “But now I see you’re a bastard like all the other guys I know.” Before Paul could say anything, she looked Wendy up, and down and then sped past them to a table. “Wow, what was that about?” Wendy asked. “That’s the girl you left with yesterday, isn’t it?” “Yes, it is. We had a little fling,” Paul confessed, then wished he hadn’t said anything. “Oh, I see, well I guess it’s none of my business,” Wendy said. “I didn’t know you were such a Casanova. Maybe I better watch myself.” “Don’t worry,”. Then I started to suck then she started to laugh and said you are still doing the same thing when I done when you are a baby she then asked me not to hurry. Then she took breast and kept in my mouth the nipples are very hard I started suck she his pressing her breast I kept my left hand on her right breast and started squeeze she doesn’t say her word instead of that she started to rub my head.Then I started to squeeze my penis that time. Again I caught by my mother and she asked me what you are. But she carried with her deep wounds and a heavy burden of unworthiness. Unworthy of love. Worthless. A waste. A total waste.Later, much later, she was still alone. Alone and lonely. Miserable. Unloved. Unlovable. In her mid-forties still a virgin, and not by choice. No man would have her, it seemed. For that matter, she could hardly bear her own company. "I love you ... ha, ha, HA!"Then, in the depths of despair and self-hatred, the realization struck her. Someone once had professed love for.