" I blanched at thesuggestion but knew he was right. Missy kissed me on the temple andheld my hand as he led me into the bathroom.A bubble bath had ...lready been run in a fairly large tub. Missy heldup a red rubber bottle and said "clean inside and out" I protested thatI didn't need an enema. Missy just kept chanting "clean inside andout" with a pained expression on his face. I figured maybe since thedoctor was coming it needed to be done so I relented. He theninserted the nozzle and. ’ Then, five years later, fuming in the humidity of a hot and hopeless summer’s day, hating life, hating him, and hating myself by the time he left me, it was the kind of day that everything felt so wrong and nothing could possibly go right. Depressed and disillusioned, feeling bad about everything and everyone, I was alone, again. ‘This sucks!’ If I were to look to Heaven, detach my feelings of disbelief, and embrace the delusion of wishing upon a star, I’d believe that the stars were aligned. “Before the Civil War.”“Yep! I wish it hadn’t fallen down. That had to be a magnificent structure.”Lena looked at me. “It was a barn. Built by people who built it to do a job. I’m sure they got their money’s worth. It wasn’t meant to be a museum piece, you know...”“I know, but we lose something about the way our predecessors used to live, how they worked...”“And baby, don’t you think that if they could’ve called up a steel building contractor, we’d be hauling Z-beams around today?”“I wonder. Then she turned and reached up behind her head, fluffing her hair and tying it into a ponytail."I want you to do something for me," she said with her chin pulled down to her neck, as she fumbled with a rubber band in her hair."What's that?" I replied, dropping my foot to the floor and clapping my hands to my knees happily.Gayle brought her hands down and brushed them together, and then placed them behind her on the dresser and leaned back. My smile quickly faded, when I saw the expression on.